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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Unconsciously annihilation myself

Weee~~~ Its been 5 days since my final exam is over...
All the stresses and tension... BE GONE!!!

NOW I AM A KING OF MY HOUSE.... MUahaha~

Im have been facing my computer for quite a period...
At first... felt so happy can enjoy...
Days later... Realize this lifestyle just suit me for short period...

Wouldnt last long... that I've pretict it...
Since i gt a immature 'six senses'... haha~

But what to do... i dont have any friends here....
my neighbors are all 'old-fashion' thinker...
cause my resident is a kampung...
and yet... my maid was washing for the floor and the
water that was just happen to be going towards
your house... And u come disturb my family asking
is that the water used by my DOGS...

Come up guys... even the water u drinking...
is already used by the DOGS all over the world..
Since dogs have the population for about 16 billion in the world...
try to be modern abit la...
just hate those 'old' tinker...
make me sick...
you know im a animal protector...
especially for dogs... DUN MESS WITH DOGS...Grrr!!

Well... Drop that topic...
Haizz.... Very Sien arrr...
Everyday i've been having a wake-eat-shit-play-bath-sleep
lifestyle... you can imagine the my looks and size if this holiday
takes 1 month....=.=ll.... Dowan think about it... Disgust... xDD

26 August... Very important day for me...
Cause this is the day the result will be coming out...
OMG... i hope i can just pass all... i dont want put so much hope on
it... as the more hope you put on, the more disappointment u will get...
That always happen to me... honestly...

And this is it... Do drop some comment ya...
i will write more there few days...
Catch ya^^

Bless u all~

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Kingdom Hearts -- Truly remarkable

I have been playing this game since when i was form 1...
And so now... This game called 'Kingdom Hearts'...
This game is 1 of my favorite...

Its produced by Square Enix... For those who are gamers espeically
for Square Enix fans... Will definitively know this game...

this game is a mixture of 'look alike' final fantasy character but
has its own unique game play with Disney character...

Im not really like the idea of these 2 together...
its was ok though...

Today im dam boring... So i went to youtube watch whatever the movie
and encounter this video called E3 ___(game name)___

E3 (Electronic Entertainment Expo) is a event which introduce all latest game...
the latest event which took place at Los Angeles...

Omg... Many games i wanted to buy...
but all will be coming out for PS3 or XBOX360... and i dont have neither both of it....T.T

It has a list of top 10 games...but im going to talk about 1 only...
That which i mention earlier....

The Kingdom Hearts games in chronological order:
1. Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep, PSP (Coming soon)
2. Kingdom Hearts 1, PS2
3. Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories, GBA
4. Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days, DS (Coming soon)
5. Kingdom Hearts 2, PS2
6. Kingdom Hearts Coded, Mobile phones (Coming soon)

Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep

These are the three main character: Aqua - Ventus - Terra




Kingdom Hearts 1

Rikku - Kairi - Sora - Donald - Goffy




Kingdom Hearts Chain of Memories



Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days

Xion - Roxas - Axel - King Mickey


Kingdom Hearts 2

All become older ad~



Kingdom Hearts Coded



This game has a truly remarkable storyline... Its series has just a piece of a puzzle that
link up the whole story...
i want all series...T.T

Friday, July 17, 2009

Last Memento

2 years have passed...




Life is so hard... Especially for my mami...

There is a lot of things i have missed...
Things and moment that cant be get back forever...

The last thing my Papa even said to me is...
Is me... thats he most worried about...


Since i was a child... i have done a lot of bad things...
A lot of things i have done... broken my parents heart...
Especially my papa...

My papa was born with a very intelligent mind...
calculations were not a problem for him...
during his primary he had jumped 1 level from primary 3 to 5...
He even selected by his university to go for Japan to study engineering...
5 candidates were chosen only...
my papa was a noble guy... ever noble guy in this world...
no one would surpass him... but my papa has a limit too...
The cancer... he had been battling for it for 4 years...
without giving up his life for the sake of family...
he battle until the last thirst of his blood...
he lost... but he lost in a manly way of each life should ended...



Life continue...

Until that day...
My mami suddenly give me a pack a things...
i open it up... it was a pen and some photo...
its appeared to be the last memento of papa that is given to me...
its a pen... like those businessman uses...
and some leftover photos which were taken after i was born not long ago...

my heart... suddenly sink into my soul...
i was so glad and sad at the same time...
Even until the last breath of my papa...
papa never stop thinking about me...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PAPA...
Im sorry about the things i did in the past
that hurt your soul so much...
Till now...
There is no one will replace you...
you are the only great papa i even have...
In my heart... your room in my heart and soul
will never gone... forever in my heart...


I LOVE U FOREVER... PAPA

The Last Memento



First few days after i was born... i think...



My Ah Ma was teaching me how to pray... She the one who teach me the way of Buddha


I dedicated this song for the world for given such a papa to me..
LOVE YOU FOREVER

From:
Your only son
Jie Sheng


Friday, July 10, 2009

Diligently pushing myself~

More than 2 months have passed since i've left for the National Service camp...
and 10 weeks of routine college time have also passed and 5 more weeks to
go for the Final exam... this really stress me out...
i dont know what i am thinking although my days...
many things struggle inside my mind...
feel like i still got many things to accomplish...
before the end of my life...

You know what... i've been thinking about this thing...
when i am going to die... this concern me very much after i got some
headache something called abdominal migraine which is most common in children
with a family history of migraine. Symptoms include abdominal pain without a
gastrointestinal cause (may last up to 72 hours), nausea, vomiting,
and flushing or paleness (pallor). Children who have abdominal
migraine often develop typical migraine as they age...

Since i have a family background which related to this headache...
These very worry me... i've been headache for 2 days and nothing possible
can stop pain... and maybe it's just a normal migraine which occur in human body
when he/she dont have enough sleep or face to much radiation (computer)...
or just too much stressed on my school... since i didnt get good result for my parents...
let me think very negative things... i guess no one really understand what im thinking...
since i cant just tell my parents i have alot of stressed from my school...
and exams mark really sickened my out of my mind...

All i have to do is touch less computer and start study...
its easy to say... but i think i can make it...
hope my final exam will at least relieve me as well as my parents...

Well... stop talking about this subject...
tomorrow will be my first shopping with my fellow course mate...
at midvalley... just planned to have a movie together and...
its up to them what they want to do after the movie...

Have nothing to say already...
just hope God will give me more time on this world
to let me finish my work before taking my away...
what am i saying... lol... of course i will live long...
i hope...

Friday, July 3, 2009

Stressful Week~

Did you've realized that almost 1 week that i didnt update
my blog...? Cause i got so many assignments i've had to hand up...
worst of all... all the date which i have to pass up my assignments
is the same date which my TEST is going up...
what a week man... really pissed me off sometimes...

Other than that... i've got nothing to write on my blog...
Coz ntg special is going on this week... feel rly boring...
after i've realized i waste much of my time stupidly..
i have been reading for my novel during my break at school...
when i first started my novel... its kinda boring...
im not the type who will read that thick book... which words in the sentences...
will confuses me... and bcoz of that...
i need to spend quite some times to think what its saying actually...
continue read read read~ non-stop... feel like i begin love to read novel...

This book I've bought during my 'happy times' with Yvonne at Midvalley's MPH...
i'm buying this book because I've realized that my English level
have magnificently drop like hell... so i planned to read it whenever I've got free time...
i cant believe i really get up to reading novel... i must admit now...
i actually like to read... LOL... anyway...
whis novel is about friction... which contain some captivating value
like history, religion, life, classic, reality and of cause willnt without passion romance...
this book really have open my mind for religion...
honestly... indeed i got abit dislike all those things related to religion... espacially christian...
sorry... i really have no offense against those who is christian...
most of all... my view about Christianity have changed... dont hate me...T.T

Well... i must admit that my English did improve abit from the learning
of this novel... now i have half way finished and half way to go...
after finished this novel... i've planned to buy another novel...
which also related to religion and love...
does this mean that i've become a book worm ad...
like those geek reading wherever they go... omg...
i think i wouldnt... since i have got a sense of famous thats it^^

This is the novel that i've been reading entitled GARGOYLE by Andrew Davidson...
Well... this novel is about a handsomely porn actor which he owns quite a big
porn company... was driving late at night which was the day of Good Friday...
Suddenly he came to a junction which 1 is lead inside to the bush...
that time he had drank alot of alcohol... and of coz... you did know what will happen to
your mind after drinking so much alcohol... suddenly... a bunch of arrows with
fire on it was heading to his car... i dont know if his imagination or some mysterious
power that held by him... then... the car plunges down into a ravine which causes horrible
burn over much of his body.. but... he did survived from that crash...

Well... this was the first chapter that i've synopsis not even half of it...
anyway... if you're interested... go and buy... LOL

Monday, June 29, 2009

Passionate advocate of LOVE

Hmm... how do i start with this topic...
well... i do believe they're people who fall in love in first sight...
and also there are people who not fall in love in first sight
but later they will... if they have fate in each other...

Speaking of fate... there's also sometimes when you've met someone
with fate which means that accidentally met him/her...
in other words... something that unavoidably befalls a person...

Fate doesnt only happens on love... it happen throughout our life...
Fate can consider as death, friends, destiny, and also fate with god...
but im not going to say all that but love only...

well... i do believe fall in love in first sight... but not me...
you know what... im not that kind of person who fall in love in first sight easily
but fall in love very easily... im admit that... dont ask me why and who do
i fall in love with... lol... anyway... well... i did fall in love quite many times
but i didnt express my feelings out cause that time which i felt that its not necessary...
but later on... i just think that if i dont express my feelings out...
i will miss the chance... maybe shes my future bride... who knows...

i did fall in love really deep once... but it didnt work out...
maybe i too over-expressed my feeling... or its just not my world...
well... i accept that... that a lifetime experience that everyone should have...

In the word 'love'... do you actually know its meaning?
Love can be a passionate affection for another person...
a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection under your deep chest...
i've seen love that really touching not only on movies (I love to watch movies espcially
love ones) but on real life time...
love can be so noble that a partner whom willing to sacrifice his/her life to another half...

And... i believed that i will meet my truly life time angel sometimes...
just cant wait for her to appear... so... what fate has brought us together...
maybe its happening already... who knows...
As some of you know... im a very emotional guy...
which i will cry for the sake of the love movie... its just come out itself... uncontrollable...
i think i've got a sympathy heart...
which make me a quite kind and generous guy...
haha... cant believe im saying this myself... so 'perasan'...

And people like me which has the sympathy heart are very easy
to be influence by people either on religion or study or anything else...
but i wouldnt allow that... make me sick... i will do it my own way...
no one can change my mind... it maybe stubborn but thats me...
BE IT... thats me...

So now... if you have a partner of your another half...
please take good care of her... there sometimes disappointed, depressed and annoyed
will occur between you two... but we dont really have to looking for them...
We have a wonderful world that is full of beauty, light and promise....
Why waste time in this world looking for the bad, disappointed or annoyed
when we can look around us, and see the wondrous things before us...

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Déjà vu

Do you ever heard of Déjà vu? Do you ever experienced it? Well...

This phenomena always occur to me...

Déjà vu also called paramnesia is the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously (an individual feels as though an event has already happened or has happened in the near past)...

although that individual don't sure whether is true or not until they witnessed that Deja vu really had happened to them in the future....

I've said that Deja vu always happen to me right? Mostly during my sleep...
Surprisingly, do you believe that i have never dream about terror or horrible dream like ghost or something else... most upset dream is dreaming about my grandparents as well as my dad...
I've cried during the dream about my precise family...

Anyway... Deja vu always happen to me about an event of the future but not past...
like when i was 7 or 8 years old... i will deja vu about 4 or 5 years later when i was in secondary school... after woke up i will totally forget all the deja vu dreams...
until the same thing same time same place occured... my sudden deja vu will awake me
that i've seen this place before or even seen that particular person before...

it's weird isnt it... usually... for me... when i dreaming about something that is NOT possible will happen on me... i will remember all the dreams event and not even missed a things about it...
this occured when the dream are not true...
but deja vu... i will totally like blank and blur in my head like thinking...
'what is that dream during my sleep??'...

U know what... the life in ns... friends i've met in college... all like i have seen them before...
all these moment are occurred same things in my dreams...
maybe God wanna tell me that my future is fixed...
And maybe God wanna tell me my fate is me myself decided and no one else
can interfere my future...

So... Do you ever experienced Deja vu before?
Let's share your idea of Deja vu by leaving a comment ya^^